well time to write, ha been soo long. been working mostly every day from 4 - closing and i get out like at 11:30 or so, so i really haven't had time to do much. been so toired from going to bed late and waking up early like 4 clock early so if you do the math i get home like at 12 fall asleep at 1, that means roughly 3 hours of sleep yup. haha dont know how i manage that but yeah anything to keep caught up with school and all. well haven't been able to go to tenis practice, so i guess im not on the team this year haha oh wells.

Well HAPPY BIRFDAY TO ALL THE MARCH PEOPLE HAHA IM ONE OF THEM FAWK YEAH THE 20th. (Jeremy sorry dude i didn't get a chance to call you and wish you a happy, well you prolly didn't need it since you happy with your girl and all hahaha)

4 all the ones who wonder y i havent asked maxine out... I love to run thats all

gosh i wish that sometimes i can talk to some1 about diz but i cant. it'd take to long to explain bout all thats hapnd, its dat u'd kinda hafta ben der for da hol thing sort of thing. i've tried moving on, n all dem nd da same way. i cant get rid ob dez feelings. ib tried talking it dont werk she runs, i try to catch up. den funny ding it werks da oder way roun too.

wen we were kids we'd alredy be doing shiz like talking bout forever, n always. heh i miss da days wen she'd sleep ober. its soo diff now, we didn't talk for a almost 6 months recently, then we came back to each other, long night conversations, first one to be called wen bored, stuff like that, but wen she found out i was going out with charlyn, yeah... things stopped again... I mean she'd tell me about guys that were hitting on her (i admit i was sorta jelus too, but jelusy isnt rely my thing), while i'd tell her how charlyn n i were doing... i thought it was ok... im soo inconsiterate...

haven't done this in awhile...

well yeah... what does one do when something doesn't go away, say like feelings for a first love ::this is just an example all right:: moment of silence.... ok done imagining? well what if thoes feelings never go away and you don't want them anymore right... its like your heart is totally on its own and the brain has no control over it. you want to forget about them, but can't, what do you do? do you embrace it or forever try running away from them? but yeah... im once again a free dude cause of these feelings and its kinda making me mad. i don't know why, but i guess im just tired of running...

oh yeah christmas party was fun gotta stay in touch so we can have it again this next year, wells also sorry about the drama going on right now about some of the present they were mearly ment for laughs nothing more, goshh...